Sometimes working so hard at a thing, you become used to struggle.
Abundance is flow, it’s the thing happening at the right time, better than you expected, glorious and full.
And when it happens, you have to let it in. You have to let it become your new reality. Let go of the pain of the struggle. Grieve it and let it go, so the new is able to be felt, to be embraced.
Gurdjieff said that the hardest thing for his students to give up was struggle. It gives meaning, and when you drop it, you have to create your own meaning instead, out of nothing but your being. Instead of meaning-in-opposition, you have meaning-from-creativity. Which in the end is more deeply nourishing, but it can take some getting used to, some reminders, some changes in mental habits, some stretching and experimenting and willingness to be different — letting go of stories and assumptions and the known, embracing the new and mysterious, cultivating curiosity and beginner’s mind, and trusting yourself in new lands.